I Need to Get Me Some

"Worry dolls, or trouble dolls, are very small dolls originally made in Guatemala. A person (usually a child) who cannot sleep due to worrying can express their worries to a doll and place it under their pillow before going to sleep.
According to folklore, the doll is thought to worry in the person's place, thereby permitting the person to sleep peacefully. The person will wake up without their worries, which have been taken away by the dolls during the night.
The dolls are about 1/2 to 2 inches (13 mm to 50 mm) tall and handmade using wood or wire as a frame, cotton fabric and thread for clothing and cardboard for its body and face. Worry dolls are often sold as a fair trade item."

Apparently I should order me some of these. I actually sleep pretty peacefully (so long as Mike isn't breathing too loudly, or Quinn isn't getting up to go potty in the wee hours of the morning, Maggie isn't crying at the foot of the bed waiting for me to give her a freakin' invitation to hop on up, and Liam isn't having a bad night) - but usually, 4 out of 7 nights I sleep pretty peacefully. But I think if I ordered those dolls I could maybe tell them my worries in the morning and then I won't spend the rest of my day worrying about everything and anything and maybe then I can actually focus on things. So I know you are all dying to know what I worry about, right? Well here they are, my little internet worry dolls:

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I worry that I'm going to get a call about my blood test that will go something like this. "The doctor would like for you to make an appointment to come and discuss your blood test. She thinks you might want to bring your husband or someone else for support." And the results will basically say, "You're dying." Not sure of what I could possibly be dying of - losing hair and weight I don't think are symptoms of some deadly disease, but you never know, right? Surely I'm going to die soon and what will my boys do without me? Okay, and when I'm not worried that I'm dying I worry about the other possiblities - medicine the rest of my life? Kicking my thyroid to underactive instead of overactive? Monthly blood tests?
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I'm worried about these strange symptoms that Mike's been having. Something similiar happened over a year ago, but this time the symptoms are a little different and are totally freaking Mike out. So much so that he's been to the doctor two times this week - trying to describe the dizziness he feels, the shaking/trembling in his arms and legs, the racing heart beat. The first doctor visit was with Doc. A who said it was all related to stress. The dizziness was a result of a very wax-built-up ear and an ear infection (which he was already being treated for). And the rest was a sort of anxiety attack. Doc. A cleaned out Mike's ear and sent him on his way. Today Mike left work early and saw Doc. B (who we like!) who was concerned mostly about the dizziness and prescribed something to help balance him out if the dizziness is caused by the ear infection. She also ordered a blood test to test his thryoid and glucose level. So we'll see - I'm worried that it's way more than just Mike's way of getting out of helping out around the house. =)
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I'm worried that Liam's going to develop autsim. Seriously. I'm not saying this lightly at all. He has a really hard time adjusting to new things. Example: we finally switched him from his carrier car seat to the regular rear-facing one. It took us a week worth's of trips in the car before he'd stop crying in his new car seat. We checked everything - not too tight, the sun wasn't out/in his eyes, and it was all at different times of day. It took us a good week before he'd be content in this new seat. There's other things that he's had trouble adjusting to - baths, eating, new people, new places, familiar people, etc. Now, don't get me wrong - he's a funny little guy and will give new people and familiar people plenty of smiles once he's comfortable - it just seems to take so long sometimes. So - it'll be interesting to see what happens in 9 months or so...
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I'm worried about gas prices. The economy. A few kids at my work. I even worry about things that aren't even going to happen yet. How are we going to retire? If we decide to have another baby in 5 years I worry that I won't be able to get pregnant and have another healthy baby. I worry about the boys facing the culture of cruelty. I worry about them driving. Going to college. I worry about them getting married to someone who hates me.
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I'm sure there's more, but you know, I gotta go clear my mind with the TV so I can (hopefully) sleep peacefully tonight.
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Good Night, Y'all.